Week 16 – Recognition of Self Worth
This week has been a week of recognizing several things. As an exercise we were to do two random acts of kindness per day and record them in the Alliances. This has been a challenge to do outside the home as my eldest, who normally has a rock solid immune system and can be totally healthy no matter what virus is circulating, is sick with fever. But now it is her turn to be the recipient of care and love as well as plenty of home made soups. With the random acts of kindness assignment we where also to add to our 20-30 items to our accomplishment index cards as well as keep adding things we are grateful for.
In the past my “self worth” has been up and down depending on my life situation. In High School it was down, College it was up, Working years it was up, Mommy years it was so-so. With doing self development stuff it improved. But I haven’t really worked a job in 12 years and to me I tied self worth = bringing in income. This week I found out that you don’t have to be a great income earner to be an awesome person.
So now with this exercise I’m thinking of kindness and ways to give it out. I am thinking of my past and the kindness I have done…. things I have forgotten up until now…Passing a homeless man and giving him food out of my own grocery bag, saving the life of my dog from a bullet, save turtles and snakes on the highway, volunteer at my kids school, donate money to the burn foundation, we have two foster kids that we sponsor monthly etc.. and more. Now even saying these things on the blog makes me feel uncomfortable. I don’t want toot my own horn and i have to remember that this is not what its about. Its about recognizing greatness and by recognizing it, it grows. If I was to have a friend who did these things I would think they where pretty AWESOME.
Yet when I look at myself I don’t see it.
Why does it take being 16 weeks in this class to figure out that hey “my self image and worth does not = to reality” . It all goes back to red pencil syndrome. Where we steer our focus to is what we magnify in our life. Instead of focusing on all the good in our life we focus on the small mistakes we do.
So here I learn to love myself. Kindness is in everybody. Kindness is in me. And it is also everywhere. Self Worth is recognizing the love that is inside of you and how much you share it.
What greatness have you discovered within on this journey? I would love it if you shared!
I love you! You are whole, perfect, strong, powerful, loving, harmonious and happy!
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